Much tamasha…about something

Mama said, don’t let the boys near.

Papa said, not before the bull is in the shed.

Teacher said, I will disgrace you if I ever find out.

And me, I wondered what all the fuss was about.

There was silence, then there wasn’t.

There was singing, the sonorous humming of creaking springs.

There was silence, then there wasn’t.

There was drumming, the clanging beats of wooden boards.

Then there was silence.

Mama said it has one purpose.

Papa said it has another.

Teacher said both are plausible.

I wondered if they hadn’t missed something.

There was silence, the mind swirled.

Emotions danced a gig, the body rolled in confusion.

There was silence, the body weaved.

Fabrics lay in cords, hearts tied to bedposts.

Then there was silence.

I said, let words be spoken before the time,

And silence the reward of peace abide.

Devoid of mirrors with broken emotions,

or shadows of stringed-on by-standers.

Let words be spoken after the time,

And silence the reward of peace

on the altar of guileless love transcending a moment.

Mama nodded,

Papa reflected,

Teacher said, ‘of this sort I wholly approve’.





No guarantees in love.

The workings of a romantic relationship between a man and a woman will probably remain the most intriguing puzzle of all mankind: throw in marriage and the puzzle morphs into a game of jumanji, making my desire to stay clear of the topic on this blog (except in fiction) more appealing. However, my major purpose in writing a blog would be defeated if I failed to explore the difference between how individuals back home (Nigeria) and individuals here (the UK) approach relationships. Please feel free to correct my assumptions or observations constructively in the comments section:

A girlfriend for a while, a bride for a day, a wife for a lifetime.

The first striking difference is the disposition of women to relationships/marriage: women in the UK don’t seem in a haste or rather in a race against time to tie the knot, in fact if anything they appear unperturbed by what age they get married. Note: the difference is not in the desire to be in a relationship or married as this in my opinion is the same on both sides. Nigerian women tend to dread being single after a certain age, it’s as though there’s an unseen whistle that goes off at a particular age a countdown to the end of your possibilities.

I believe the difference lies in societies attitude towards  single women/single mothers: in England most people do not bat an eyelid at the single woman/ mother (this has not always been the case). The society carters for the single mother in the same way it treats everyone else. Back home the single woman is considered by society as a burden to her family regardless of financial or economic status. In some circles beyond a certain age she might be seen as a misfit whilst a single man is considered irresponsible.

The second major difference lies in the acceptance of kids outside marriage or within a partnership which isn’t ‘legalized’. Having a child out of wedlock or with anyone other than your spouse is severely frowned upon by the Nigerian society. The case is, however ,different in England: teenage mums and single mums (married or divorced) are not stigmatized neither are their kids. It is not unusual to have couples cohabiting or to have siblings with the same mum, but different dads. This acceptance influences the attitude of women to marriage and aging in England. Women are liberated and not shackled by societies expectation, they call the shots.

The culture and religious atmosphere in Nigeria probably accounts for its outlook on such issues. According to the policy paper written by Hera Cook “No turning back: family forms and sexual mores in modern Britain” the case was much the same in England prior to the 1950s. In those times people especially women, could not enjoy an adult status, heterosexual sexual activity, parenthood or household formation without being married. The unmarried usually could not form their own households and therefore remained under the control of the head of the household where they lived, with limited sexual activity. Single mothers were shamed and reduced to dire poverty. Women and men emerged from a long period of sexual control and repression in the 1960s. The emergence of the pill and subsequent improvements in birth control meant that sex between men and women no longer translated to major economic consequences and thus, the tides turned giving birth to today’s society. It is presently unclear as to whether the Nigeria will follow in the steps of its colonial masters with respects to shaming single individuals into marriage.

Ijeoma me
Excited love for today, enduring love for tomorrow. Still the same love, only one lasts even when the darkness grows.

Having experienced life in both societies, I must say that I find neither approach satisfactory. Both systems are riddled with problems: with one you find the court wide open without any restrictions which in my opinion leads to less enduring and satisfying relationships, split parenting units/families and an attitude that quits on people when they don’t measure up. Whilst the other has propagated the multiplication of “families” which seem normal on the surface, but are severe fractured internally, breeding a desire in people to conform without understanding or guidance. I have learned a valuable lesson from both societies on love and marriage: regardless of the route you take to love or marriage, there are no guarantees except the ones you and your partner are willing to uphold together. I believe this holds through for everyone, so don’t allow pressure make you leap and don’t assume sex, kids or cohabiting is certain to guarantee love, it doesn’t!

“Sexual Revolution and liberation altered our way of life significantly, but it did not change our essential nature; true it makes us feel free, or free-er than our predecessors— free to indulge ourselves, free to sleep around, free to pursue passing feelings like overwhelming love — an emotion which  seldom lasts, and a word, which is meaningless unless its definition includes commitment.” (Source: Dailymail online by A.N WILSON  paraphrased)